Where You'll Find Me

One of those little breadcrumbs crept up on me today. It has been churning around in my head so I know there is something here that I need to write about. Ultimately as I sit here typing, what resonates most is just the simple feeling of feeling like enough. I've turned the corner on the nuclear bomb that has imploded in my life in the past year and a half. I've crawled out of the depression and hopelessness. I'm done picking up pieces and trying to make them fit. The kaleidoscope I was living in is a memory. I'll carry the scars with me, but the bleeding has stopped and I'm no longer suffocating in the aftermath.

Where you'll find me now is swimming in the deep end of the universe. I'll be here celebrating who I am and my capacity to feel and love beyond anything I could have ever imagined.

The struggle and the loss didn't kill me. It uncovered the depth of my soul and the strength I have to survive it all.

I will no longer shrink to fit anyone else's needs.

I will have the courage to speak my truth.

I will hold space in my life for those who can see me, understand me and appreciate me for exactly who I am.

I will hold my heart for the one who can meet me here and stand with me against whatever comes.

I believe I've paid my dues now. I'm ready to rebuild a life to be more steady in and proud of. More than anything, I want Jack to see me happy and actually living a life. I want him to see that love wins.

That's where you'll find me... where love always wins.