Flipping the Script: Becoming Who She Needs

I've heard the concept of an inner child. I can look back on my life. I know her memories and her wounds are stitched into the entire fabric of my being, but where does she end and I begin?

 Is she just a memory now? Is there more to it than that?

As I step through my healing journey, I feel the overwhelming need to understand this relationship better. The most prevalent relationship in my life, outside of God, is the one I know the least about.

I'm understanding that she is not just a memory. She's not a photo in my mind or a chapter I've outgrown.

She is a living imprint - a part of my soul that has stayed with me. Not only does her energy still live within me - she's the emotional compass of my life. Everything she learned, both good and bad - drives the emotional responses within my nervous system.

Now I have to question what she needs so that we can flip the script in this life we're living.

What can I possibly do to help her now?

The answer is: EVERYTHING!

Everything that I can become now, I will become for both of us. She will not have to hide or be afraid anymore, because I will shoulder the responsibility of healing now.

I had a dream, or what I'm told in the spiritual world is an awakening. I was in a very dark and cold place. It was pitch black. I felt something move behind me. I turned and saw my younger self stepping forward in a very faint light. She was so little and so scared. I felt my heart breaking for her and my instincts to protect her kicked in. I pulled her behind me and said, "It's okay. I've got this now." Suddenly a door opened. On the other side, the most vibrant and glowing light I've ever seen. I was flooded with relief and release.

Now I can't say 100% what it was or what it wasn't. I know what I feel. Now that the dots are connecting, I feel it was my moment to take responsibility for my emotional compass and release her from the burdens she has carried for so long. This is on me now. I will heal. I will become. I will protect my soul so that she has a soft space to exist until we go home.