Talking to God

This website and everything that will come from it is my daily, unspoken conversation with God.

There is no greater truth than this: He gave me this purpose.

I've been gifted with the profound realization that I don't have to look outwardly for anything. It is all coming from within me. It's flowing to me and through me. It all comes with a great clarity that a spiritual connection isn't about external performance - it's internal presence.

Creating. Loving. Healing. Hoping. These are our unspoken prayers that directly connect us to Him.

God is not in the noise.

Not in the rules.

Not in the guilt or the gold stars or the fear of not being enough.

The truth is:

You don't need a church pew to find Him.

You don't need approval or perfection.

You don't need to go anywhere but inward.

These words I type... it's just little ole me, Dani from WV, with heart cracked open, hands to keyboard trying to show Him that I remember why I'm here.

I'm here for those who still feel lost, who still think they have to do more, be more, go somewhere else to find Him. I'm here for those that need to not feel so alone in the struggle. Those who may just need that one divine message to help them find their purpose or give them hope.

I'm here because He refused to give up on me when I begged Him to take me too.

This is the work I still have to do. I asked. He answered.

Versions of Me

I used to define my life by what happened. Who left. What broke. What didn't come through. But lately, I've been seeing it differently... not a series of events, but as a series of selves. There is an evolution... an evolution of Dani.

I used to look back and lay blame, ache for emotional restitution and I'd wish away all the brokenness. Yes, maybe it could have been different - better. But would I give up where it brought me and who it made me? Looking at Jack and feeling Tony in me, I would resoundingly say no.

Each one of me had her own way of dealing with the complexities of life that overwhelmed her.

The one who kept quiet to keep the peace.

The one who stayed small to stay out of the way.

The one who ran.

The one who stayed too long.

The one who smiled when she wanted to scream.

The one who hid the bruises.

The one who let her heart break so others' wouldn't.

I can now look back and respect each of them. I can empathize. But most importantly, I can choose to become the one who finally said ENOUGH.

And that's exactly where I find this new version of me - focused, determined, flowing with the divine direction I've been given... and finally, feeling excited and proud of who I'm becoming. This version of me is a force, a truth teller, and hopefully a lighthouse.

Flipping the Script: Becoming Who She Needs

I've heard the concept of an inner child. I can look back on my life. I know her memories and her wounds are stitched into the entire fabric of my being, but where does she end and I begin?

 Is she just a memory now? Is there more to it than that?

As I step through my healing journey, I feel the overwhelming need to understand this relationship better. The most prevalent relationship in my life, outside of God, is the one I know the least about.

I'm understanding that she is not just a memory. She's not a photo in my mind or a chapter I've outgrown.

She is a living imprint - a part of my soul that has stayed with me. Not only does her energy still live within me - she's the emotional compass of my life. Everything she learned, both good and bad - drives the emotional responses within my nervous system.

Now I have to question what she needs so that we can flip the script in this life we're living.

What can I possibly do to help her now?

The answer is: EVERYTHING!

Everything that I can become now, I will become for both of us. She will not have to hide or be afraid anymore, because I will shoulder the responsibility of healing now.

I had a dream, or what I'm told in the spiritual world is an awakening. I was in a very dark and cold place. It was pitch black. I felt something move behind me. I turned and saw my younger self stepping forward in a very faint light. She was so little and so scared. I felt my heart breaking for her and my instincts to protect her kicked in. I pulled her behind me and said, "It's okay. I've got this now." Suddenly a door opened. On the other side, the most vibrant and glowing light I've ever seen. I was flooded with relief and release.

Now I can't say 100% what it was or what it wasn't. I know what I feel. Now that the dots are connecting, I feel it was my moment to take responsibility for my emotional compass and release her from the burdens she has carried for so long. This is on me now. I will heal. I will become. I will protect my soul so that she has a soft space to exist until we go home.