Turning 50 turned the tables

I wouldn't call it a mid-life crisis, but when I turned 50 I had some deep realizations. When I looked back at my adult life, I felt like I had not progressed at all. I saw that I lived in a perpetual cycle of overcoming stress and adversity. People changed. Circumstances changed. The story remained the same.

It made me sad. It made me angry at myself. Most of all, it made me start searching for answers. Why didn't I ever feel like I could rest or be at peace? Why was I constantly jumping from one fire to the other? Why did I feel the need to give away all my energy to rescue other people who didn't really give a damn how I was feeling? Why did I feel so alone? What did I do in a prior life to deserve this type of karma?

The overwhelming feeling that the more life passed by, the less joy I had was a gut punch to my soul. I knew I had to start devoting some of my energy to making my life better before all my opportunities were gone.

I started researching healthy living tips on social media and throughout the web. I starting gathering information. I started experimenting while still traversing the ups and downs of my life. One of the biggest game changers for me was meeting Jeannie Winters who introduced me to Human Design. This practice gave me the insights into my own psyche so that I could capitalize on my strengths and proactively combat roadblocks and learned bad behaviors that are preventing me from moving forward in my life and spiritual journey.

As a collective, we have a great opportunity to help each other. This blog is my effort to share my experiences and growth. Also, to demonstrate that there is always hope.